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Shadows - RED

Sunset, I close my eyes 
I pretend everything's alright 
Drowning in anger from all these lies 
I can't pretend everything's alright 
Please don't let me fall forever 
Can you tell me it's over? 

Dean lay awake, staring at the ceiling. He was angry at Castiel for lying about working with Crowley, angry with himself for lying to Sam, angry at himself for lying to ___________. He couldn't pretend that everything was fine anymore; everyone hated each other, just in secret. They all feared each other and all mistrusted each other. He was so frustrated. He was falling into a place he couldn't escape. He felt an angry hate bubbling in his heart, a hate that swallowed him whole and made him afraid of himself.

He looked at ___________, curled into his side, his shirt balled in her hands and her hair obscuring her eyes. She was such an angel, her honesty and love completely and totally pure.

"Tell me it's over, please."

There's a hate inside of me like some kind of monster 
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer 
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go 
I need you with me as I enter the shadows 

She stirred slightly and shifted to rest her head on his chest. He pulled her close, afraid to let her go.

He'd lost her before, he'd do it again. It was a matter of time. He was afraid to send her away. Dean didn't have many friends. She'd get killed whether by the hands of his enemies or on a mission with him. Either way it would be his fault.

Caught in the darkness, I go blind 
But can you help me find my way out? 
Nobody hears me, I suffer the silence 
Can you tell me it's over now? 


He felt himself slipping further and further each day, losing sight of what was real and what was good and what was okay. He needed her to stay by his side, at least until he was completely lost. If she didn't, he feared what he would become.

A monster.

He knew she could help him, if she just held on a little longer. Sam didn't seem to understand, even though he'd endured the same thing as Dean his entire life. Castiel was a downright liar, and Dean did not trust him at all. He didn't trust him to help him with this hate.

It wasn't a hate for others. It was one darker than that. It was hate aimed directly at himself. He knew it would drive him to do terrible things if he didn't fix it.

There's a hate inside of me like some kind of monster 
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer 
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go 
I need you with me as I enter the shadows 


She stirred slightly and opened her eyes. She smiled sweetly and kissed him softly. "Dean, why aren't you sleeping yet? It's late."

"Just thinkin' about things," he said, smiling gently. 

"What things?" she asked, nuzzling into his neck. His skin was warm and soft.

"Just stupid things, nothing important. Don't worry your pretty little head." He chuckled quietly.

He felt her lips curl into a smile and he closed his eyes. He felt some of that terrible cold inside his chest melt.

I'm holding onto you
I'm holding onto you
There's a hate inside of me like some kind of monster 
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer 
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go 
I need you with me as I enter the shadows


"____________, you promise you won't leave me?" he said, irritated with himself at having asked. He was practically asking her to die, by asking her to stay. How could he be so selfish? Hadn't enough people suffered the same fate? Hadn't enough people died for his pitiful cause? He hoped she'd say no, now that he was thinking about it.

"I promise," she yawned.

He let out a long sigh and wrapped his arms around her. He'd never let her go, no. Now his only goal was to protect her and if he died trying, he'd die happy. 
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KristenTheManatee Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2015
Will you do a Let it burn by RED song fic? PLEASEE DOOO
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CompyCat Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014
Awwww!
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kerwella Featured By Owner May 25, 2014
This is good :-) 
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you :D
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marali-eyrina-amirya Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student General Artist

:iconcryforeverplz:

 

I love you so much! You are epic! :iconsupertighthugplz:

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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU :iconcannotevenplz:
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marali-eyrina-amirya Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Student General Artist
You're Welcome! :iconoldschoolownedplz:
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Perverchian-nyan Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2013
Is there a sequel? CAUSE I LOVE THIS
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
hehe I'm so glad you do :D
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Perverchian-nyan Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013
<3
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Neruroll Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Llama Emoji 02 (Blush) [V1] 
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconohuplz:
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2000kittykatz Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013
Mou :icondean: :icondeanwinchester: :iconnyancat: haha the awesomeness!!!
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much :D I'm glad you liked it :)
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2000kittykatz Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
^.^ :iconsmile:
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missdarlingdead Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Student Writer
it made me cry, it was so beautiful :)
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! I'm really glad you liked it :D Dean's such a sad little baby :(
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OokamiBlack Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:iconthesefeelsplz:
Nnnnnnnaaaaaaaaggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry :iconletmehugyouplz:
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OokamiBlack Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:iconsupertighthugplz: No, dont be.
Feels cannot be controled;P
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Feels can never be controlled; it's the weakness of the fangirls
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OokamiBlack Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
True that
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Ccsienna Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I. Love. Your. Work!
:iconclappingplz: good job!!
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much :iconiloveyouplz::iconbrohugplz:
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Ccsienna Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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Your welcome
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oOSolemn-SilenceOo Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
-pets head- There are feels right here.
And fluff.
Fluuuuuuuuuuuuufffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry just on a fluff roll recently XD
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oOSolemn-SilenceOo Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love fluff
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Don't we all?
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oOSolemn-SilenceOo Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep ^^




Even the gore lovers -coughcoughmecough-
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:icontruestoryplz:
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punkrockpancake Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013
This is so beautiful *-* In a bittersweet kind of way :'(
But gah, I'd never let go of Dean too!
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.

I wouldn't either, he's too precious for this world XD
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punkrockpancake Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013
Exactly! :iconsupertighthugplz:
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DarkBlackLittleRose Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist
This is so beautiful and so sad...
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Dean is so beautiful and so sad XD
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Rosebud278 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Student Writer
I like it. A lot. :)
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you :D
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Rosebud278 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Student Writer
Hey I have a question.
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Ask away
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Rosebud278 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Student Writer
Can you write something for me? I mean I'm tryin really hard to write something with Sweeney Todd/ Mrs. Lovett, but it's not workin' too well. :( I have done poems that are kinda witty and go along with the story pretty well though. I think you might like those a little though.

So here's the deal, I saw Sweeney Todd the movie. (No I have not seen the play, but I do plan to.) Now I'mfucking obsessed with Johnny Depp (well no surprise there though) and of course Helena Boham Carter. Well atleast in the Tim Burton movies. Anyway, I tried writing this thing, and it totally failed and I've been reading Sweenett stuffs for the past month, AND I CAN BARELY KEEP THE FEELS ALL CLOSED UP. So on the inside, I'm a raging ball of Sweeney Todd x Mrs. Lovett feels.

Also I heard Loki isnt gonna be in the next avengers movie because he dies in Thor 2. Is this true? Because if it is, I'm going to start bawling in 3...2... Yep there it goes. LOKI CAN'T DIE. IT'S BARBARIC TO KILL MY BELOVED TOM AND DO BAD THINGS LIKE THAT. I DO NOT APPROVE!!!! :iconsadplz:

And that's my question...
Man it feels good to get that off my chest...
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
DON'T FUCKING TELL ME THAT LOKI IS GOING TO DIE GET OFF OF THE INTERNET IF YOU'RE GOING TO SAY SUCH RUDE THINGS I EAT RUDE PEOPLE LIKE YOU SO YOU BEST RUN AWAY GOD THAT'S ABSOLUTELY NOT OKAY

And sure I'll write you a story. If you want to, gimme your poems and your ideas
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Rosebud278 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Student Writer
Okay yay. I'll send them tomorrow.

And I really and dead serious about the Loki thing. I read something on tumblr that someone looked up if Loki was gonna be in the second avengers. They said no because he dies on Thor 2.
If he does die, I'm killing all of them bitches in Hollywood.
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm going to lose my shit if it happens
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DawnBells Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
Oh my god this is so sad!

Poor Dean. *hugs the hunter* It's going to be okay.
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sigynsfanlit Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Dean's a sad baby :iconcraiplz:
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